I do not wish him well

It is not difficult sir...it's simple. He isn't here. He's gone n he's the better for it. That isn't difficult. He's out there and I'm here where everything is the same. I still go to the same places, I walk the same halls, I wear the same clothes. It's not difficult. This is where I chose to be. But sir, I kept his secrets, you know it and I know it, he knows it. And yet while everything is the same it is very different. Now I'm lucky if someone see me. Now I'm a ghost. That is not difficult..it's unbearable. Everybody is proud of him but I'm not, I do not wish him well.